Ma Vie

So, originally I started a tumblog to keep my family and friends updated on my life in France. Now I'm back home and although my life is much less interesting in the states, hopefully I'll still find some things to post here, because I really like having a blog, despite the fact that I'm technologically challenged.

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(See, I told you I was technologically challenged, I can't even figure out how to make that into a real link)

July 16, 2008

I just got a wave of “wow, not being in France really sucks” depression. They’ve been coming and going pretty regularly for the past month and a half. Sometimes when I’m close to forgetting how much I miss it, I’ll see a picture, or read an e-mail, or tell a story, and it all comes rushing back.

The thing that scares me most is that it feels like I was never even there. It changed my life so much, and yet now I can only think of it as this weird, abstract place/state of mind I was in for four months before everything suddenly went back to normal. I expected to come back and everything would be different, I would be a new person, I would keep France with me even when I wasn’t there. But it doesn’t even feel like I was in France. It feels like I woke up from a vivid, wild, scary, funny, irritating, sad, loving, but ultimately beautiful, dream, and now I’m just trying desperately to go back to sleep and pick up where I left off.

1 month ago